I wanted to scream all night, but I couldn't; even though I had strong walls, walls which would make my hand bleed with a fist, but I simply couldn't scream.
When was the last time I really cried? I don't remember, it must be too many time ago, because there are too many tears, I can't stop them.
Something hurts, it's not my heart, it's deeplier than that....damn! It really hurts!
Fucking body! Control yourself! Why can't you do something so simple?
Fucking doubts! It's supposed you wanted to be this since you can remember!
Fucking freak girl! Rise your head!! Are you gonna be a weak one? Do you have any other plan but this? No? Funny...isn't it? Miserable human being...This is all you have, don't waste it! And don't you dare show this fucking face to them!
Look your eyes in the mirror! What's that?? Is that you? Don't you dare stop smiling in front of them! You don't deserve being sad, that's too much for you, you're nothing for sadness, worse that nothing!
Just get up!
If you're gonna think about it just think it! Don't say it! You're not weak! You won't show your desperated face....
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